artwork by Simran Kaur; a still life, product, and creative portrait photographer and artist based in London (England).
During 2020 I had lots of thoughts, and one of them was about anxiety. I do get anxious and I wanted to create a still life project which could showcase anxiety, but not just my anxiety I wanted to also showcase other people’s anxiety. After doing some research, I understood that of course everyone experiences anxiety in various ways, and to deeply understand people’s various experiences with anxiety, I decided to ask some people how they feel when they are anxious. Some of them feel breathless which can lead them to hyperventilate sometimes, they do also feel bloated or they keep moving around, but some of them also start sweating a lot, they start daydreaming and they can’t move.
I want to share some of the things people told me about their anxiety:
Person A:” I do also have social anxiety which makes me feel like I’m being pierced by a thousand tiny needles made of ice. My chest feels tight and I struggle to breathe it feels like I’m drowning in an ice lake.”
Person B:” My head begins turning into a mental fog where my thoughts are bouncing on each other, a combination of traumas and past events which collide. My brain takes control of my body and makes me say or do things to protect myself from doing things out of my comfort zone.”
Person C: ” I never get any sleep when I’m anxious, and sometimes I end up crying for hours until my mom hears me. “I didn’t share their names as I want to protect their privacy, but they gave me the freedom to share what they told me.After writing down what people told me about their anxiety, I started researching and sketching my photoshoot. I decided to use toys to symbolize people and ice to symbolize anxiety. The toys and other various objects were set up in the water which then was placed in the freezer to of course freeze the water, and to create the daydreaming effect I mostly played with balancing highlight and shadows.